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It's been two years, but this place seems almost exactly the same. The only difference is I'm now living in a different city called Seoul, the capital city of South Korea. It's much bigger than the city I previously lived. It takes about... an hour to get anywhere here. Theater, restaurant, cafe, etc.. you just name it. To go anywhere decent, it takes about an hour by subway. Taking subway is really fun, by the way. I lost way three or four times by now, and it's.... well, amusing. Actually, it's not that pleasant around six or seven in the evening because the subway gets all packed up with literally thousands of people. Every seat's taken, and all I can do is to stand up clinging onto something for the entire hour or two it takes to get to my aunt's house. Then again, I get to see all these different Asian girls in there. Looking at girls is the only way to spend an hour in subways. Seriously. Trust me with that. Of course, that's for guys and... possibly lesbians..? Hahaha... haha.. ha. -_-;; sorry.
Food is great too. Although I get to eat same food over and over again in my aunt's house, once I step outside I can eat whatever I want to eat. I'm loaded with money my aunts and other relatives gave me, so money's not much of a problem for now. Besides, there are tons of cheap food out there. It costs around only 3 bucks to have a decent meal at a restaurant. Of course, some exported goods are shockingly expensive. For instance, Starbucks coffee (9 oz.) is like 3-4 bucks. Unbelievable, right? I totally agree with that. I think it's outrageous.
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I had an interesting conversation with Neal today. It all started with a question. At first I thought it was just a simple question of asking the definition of some highly educated & convoluted vocabulary word. Neal refused to aid me in this quest to learn more English vocabulary. (By the way, the word happened to be "funky.") That was quite a saddening experience of the day. Now I remember that the same thing (almost) happend when I asked the correct definition of "nerd," (which I still don't know the correct definition of).
Then he said I seem to be a different person in real life than the one appears in my live journal. This led me to think if I was developing some kind of multiple personality. I heard it's a serious mental disease. =_=!! I've been trying to figure why this is happening in my life since it's not the first time I heard that from a friend. Now that I come to think of it, I come to one conclusion. I behave differently in front of people. When I'm in front of my computer in my room with some Korean & American music played being the only source of any sound, I seem to be in a strange mood that leads me to write entries that are "lucid" (as Neal puts it) to other people. Not that all I write makes total sense or anything, but I seem to think and behave quite differently. And... (apparnetly) I guess that's noticeable to Neal. I don't know for sure.
Anyhow, I think I'll go to Prom. As Susan pointed out, it is my last chance to go. I'll have fun, and I'll wear my tux, and bother Edward to introduce AHS in Mandarin, and bother Neal to define the word "funky & nerd," and..... I'll think of more stuff later. |
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Apr. 4th, 2005 @ 03:40 pm
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Prom.
This is my first entry of the month. Interesting.... Maybe I should update some more and read my friends' entries as well. Some of those are really intriguing to read...
Anyhow, back to the topic.
Jeonghoon's going, Beth's going, Dianna's going, .e.t.c. (No offense, but even) Edward is going. -_-;;
Don't know what to do about this. Seems like a good idea since this really is my only chance to go to Prom as a senior. Then again, I can't stop but to ask myself what's there to go. To enjoy myself? To have a good time with people I do care about? Or is it simply because I have nothing to do with my unmotivated senioritus-infected a**(No idea what the correct spelling is). All of these would be true, but I don't know if I'm willing to go or not. And... I'm running out of excuses not to go. Actually, I don't even have any excuse not to go. Then again, going because there's no excuse left is probably not a good idea either.
Maybe I'm afraid I might not have much fun and getting into a really cranky mood afterwards.
Where did Jeonghoon's love-style quiz go anyways? I was going to take it (again) this morning, and to my surprise it was gone.
And.. Edward, I demand you introduce Ames High School in Chinese now~!! Don't refuse again. |
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Mar. 26th, 2005 @ 10:07 pm
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One month has passed since I last posted, and I guess it's time for me to post again. (I think, among my friends with a possible exception of Jeonghoon, I'm the one who posts the least.. Not that it's anything to be proud of..) Anyhow, today was somewhat depressing as usual. I don't know why, but somehow I've been going through some emotional upheavals for a few days by now. I don't know why for sure, or.. I simply don't feel like posting why I'm feeling lame and sick of myself all of a sudden. Having said that, I guess this post would be lame as all the other ones since I'll just talk about what I'm feeling right now without delving into any reasons why I feel like this. Maybe I'd better stop writing, but I can't find any better way to express my emotions than writing although I'm not saying I'm good at writing in English.
No.
I should stop here. Writing anything in emotional state onto these public websites have proved to be bad in my previous experiences. Maybe I'll write more on this later when I feel more stable and open about discussing it. Sorry.
Before posting this, I want to say that I don't mind watching a movie all by myself. Though I like to watch some funny movies with friends, but in case of sad movies, I prefer to watch it alone before watching it with other people. However, I think I might have offended Beth in some way by saying I'll go watch a movie by myself when she kindly offered (I don't know if this is the right word to use in this case) to watch a movie with me. I do think Beth is a nice person who cares about other people's feelings, and I'm grateful that I have such person around me.
I guess this will be it for the day, unless I feel inspired to write some more entries later in the day or next month. |
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This is all because of Pringle.
I gotta kick his a** sometime soon....
Anyhow, I gotta sleep.. |
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Your EQ is |
160
50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar. |
All of a sudden, chemistry is interesting.
I don't know why for now...
But, I think it is because of some kinda anger inside my mind right now.
Chemistry made me angry... argh...
It might not make any sense for I'm skipping all details or behind stories,,
but.... I must say chemistry IS an interesting subject.
Maybe I should think about majoring in chemistry...
No.. maybe history...
argh...
Hope i would not make any hasty decisions..
By the way, this test thing's fun as always. :D
One thing I found out,,,
You can manipulate that score quite easily using HTML.. :O
SO I'm going to have fun with this.
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50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar. |
Jan. 21st, 2005 @ 03:25 pm
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I'll write one more journal..
I guess today's my journal day for live journal.
Well, I haven't thought about this for long, so I shouldn't say anything about it. But, I just want to babble about what I thought. So... it might be some sort of joke for some people.. Anyhow, here I go.
Recently, I formed a theory called Phantom of Love.
Probably, many people will know it's only a parody of Phantom of Opera. However, it's not a mockery of that great opera or anything. It's just random thought that came over to my head as I was talking with a friend of mine. A really precious friend.
To get into explaining what it is, I need to go through an anecdote I heard from my psychology teacher-ish kinda person. She (she's like 39.. and she's in S. Korea right now) talked about addictions. According to her, sad reality about addiction is addicted people can't get over it, unless there is something more addictive or something they deem more than the excitement that addictive stuff bring. Such examples might include smokers' children, or druggie's whatever.
And this conversation with her sparked something else when I was talking to my friend about love-ish things. You know, some goofy questions and conversations as always. I told him, the moment we fall in love is when we get addicted to it. It's such a nice feeling. It brings happiness, excitement, and for me, some feeling of... hm... being more complete? or full? Like I am more than what I am, or what I thought I was. Yeah, I know that's corny. Despite that, I'll use that phrase.
Unfortunately, many people, at least the people around me, seem to go through a stage of pain after loving someone or maybe liking someone. I am an example for that, my friend is an example for that, and even the people I knew back in Korea are not exceptions.(Sorry, I can't specify.)
And.. because we are addicted to this state of love, we seek for its alternative. We seek to get it other people we'll fall in love with, and sometimes achieve the same, or sometimes even more. This is what I call the phantom of love.
Because of the first feelings of love that brought such exultations, we seek it throughout next decade or two in our lives, and for some people, their entire life span.
This somewhat seems futile at times though.. Especially after going through such depression period as I have gone through.. But I don't know.. I think I'm lured to this phantom again, and I don't know what it will bring out this time. Hopefully, I'll seek right person this time..
Too long for an entry, right?.. It was a futile attempt to make up for other entires :P
If someone read this all, he/she might think I'm crazy.
Go ahead.
Jan. 21st, 2005 @ 02:19 am
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Well, Kevin said something about posting only once every two months, so here I am.
Posting an online journal is always fun, but... sometimes it's bit hard to do when there are
five of them out there waiting to be filled out...
Maybe I should start copying and pasting the same entry from my other journals, hm..
I seriously gotta consider that..
This liverjournal thing is the only connection to other people besides in school, so...
I should think about it.
Life..
Difficult as always.
Relationship, schoolworks, etc... everything's intertwined into a puddle of mess that I hardly know which one to deal with first.
So, I procrastinate.(I should admit, even though I have a really nice excuse).
This often leads to another procrastination, and then something bad in the end.
Gosh.. I'm creating difficulties for myself by myself, and I'm complaining about it..
How typically Hoffmann..
Oh well, gotta go to bed..
After all, it's well past my bed time.
Don't know what kept me awake so long.
Must be Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic..
Jedi stuff is always fascinating...
Jan. 21st, 2005 @ 01:56 am
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O for odd, hm..
I love it!
Gotta work on my reflective essay..
It's quite fun actually. I never thought it would be fun.
haha, must be the nap I took before it.
I feel so much better. literally, so much better
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Fit |
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| HOFFMANN |
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Organic |
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Frisky |
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Naughty |
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Dec. 16th, 2004 @ 10:19 pm
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Hm......
This is one of the questions I constantly ask myself when posting something on a live journal.
Should I be honest and truthful? or should I just cover myself up with all good stuff that happened during the day?
Most of the times, I try to be honest and thankful, and that often makes journal full of ideas and self-controversy.
Wonder if that makes any sense or not...
I should get a notebook for this Christmas.
Something plain and simple, so that I can write down my thoughts on...
I still feel a little bit bitter somehow after taking a nap.
Must be the dream.
It was not good. It was more or less a nightmare. Gosh...
Dec. 14th, 2004 @ 06:35 am
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Well, what should I write?
First of all, thanks to Hannah for letting me realize I still had this live journal account. ^-^
As a sign of appreciation, I'm writing this journal entry.
I wonder if this is going to honestly reflect what I'm thinking right now, since I'm thinking in
a language I believe most people here can't understand.
I do not know yet, but that's why I'm going to try to find out right now.
Let's see.
Feelings..?
I must say I feel bitter right now.
Not because there is an obvious reason for it(even though there is :P),
but because of the general situation around me.
Many things often do not match my predictions of what they would be right now.
Maybe it is because I have been in a state of sleep deficit(12 hours in 4 days, including weekends? Yup, that's what I call sleep deficit~!), and can't think clearly as a result of it.
I become increasingly aggressive toward people only that I'm able to retain it from erupting.
I don't know if that makes any sense or not.
Gosh... Gotta go and finish my paper.
Interestingly enough, I've got 3 or 4 papers to write even though I seem to have a lot of time to spend right now...
That sucks... that sucks a lot...
Dec. 13th, 2004 @ 10:42 am
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I am infinity
You may worship me,
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what number are you?
this quiz by orsa
By far, this is my favorite one~!
Infinity.. (Sounds cool!)
Sep. 20th, 2004 @ 04:36 pm
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Communication and reading are invaluable things I can't afford to lose.
Communication gives the insight about the person I'm talking to,
and the reading in larger sense is a communication between the author and myself.
Through communication and reading, I can get a glimpse of what the other person had thought about and put time in for long time.
From that, I get my inspiration to continue to expand my thoughts, and sometimes
develop a deeper idea about myself.
Thank you, Susan, for the inspirational conversation.
Sep. 2nd, 2004 @ 05:16 pm
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It'll be so obvious that any reader who knows this person will find out before long. His initials are JP. He likes to call himself JP original, but guess what? There are tons of JP's out there to consider yourself JP "original". To describe him as with few vocab words I happen to know, I would pick up "immature" and "annoying." No matter how patient a person is, there always is a limit to the person's patience. JP is the kind of person who drives your patience to the end. I honestly don't know what he's trying to get out of it when there's nothing he can actually get out of it. Maybe a hard blow on his face or two.(Actually, whole lot more than that). He also is a person who likes to label people. The way he labels people is also very interesting to examine. Interestingly enough, he never considers others' feelings before labeling them, and his labels never change afterward. Never a listener, he doesn't know how to listen, or thinks of every problem in his own point of view. When the point of talking is just to let other people know about one's problems, he thinks he's the only person who can solve the problem.(Obviously when he's not.) I wonder if Jesus can handle him even if Jesus is so kind, loving, and all that as described in Bible.
May. 22nd, 2004 @ 11:30 am
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I took a test to know which of the Greek gods I am, and I found some interesting things about myself. I guess that will be my today's postage.
Nemesis
?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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If you want to find about which of the Greek gods you are, then just click on the link that's provided below the picture. It's quite fun to do one of these stuffs once in a while.
May. 20th, 2004 @ 11:15 pm
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It says in the legend that there was Hwan-in in heaven, god who ruled over all things in universe. He had a son named Hwan-woong. Hwan-woong looked over the earth one day and saw human beings on earth. Although the place had the potential to be the greatest in the universe, there always was conflict going on among human beings. He was saddened by the fact and thought to himself he would benefit all men by going down to the earth by himself. In order to do that, he went down to earth with three gods. He manifested his idea throughout the world, and many people came from all over the place to worship him and follow him. Among them were some animals who wanted to be human. Hwan-woong gave garlic and onion to the animals, a tiger and a bear, to live in the darkness for 100 days. The tiger gave up eventually, but the bear endured 100 days and was turned into a beautiful lady. Hwan-woon then marries this beautiful lady, and has one son named Dan-goon(meaning ruler of all humans). This is how the civilizations began in my culture.
May. 19th, 2004 @ 11:19 pm
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ID that I have chosen for my account portrays my ancestry clearly. Although it might not be a clue any American figure out easily, it is a name of a person from legend in my culture.
May. 18th, 2004 @ 09:34 pm
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